June 11, 2024, is my day of liberation. Today, I am stepping out of the darkness and embracing God as my loving Father, accepting that I am His beloved adopted daughter. I renounce all separation from God, choosing only loving communion with Him.
From the beginning of time, there has been a psychological distortion of the Truth about humanity. In the Bible, it is expressed as Satan’s threefold plan to tempt Adam and Eve to fall from God’s grace:
Separation from Our Creator: Satan sows the illusion of self-sufficiency, exemplified by the serpent tempting Adam and Eve to eat the forbidden fruit. The serpent insinuated that God was withholding something good, leading us to doubt God’s trustworthiness and turn away from Him.
Deep Shame: The generational shame of doubting God prevents us from recognizing Him and distorts our self-perception. When God called out to Adam, Adam hid because he was ashamed of his nakedness—something that had never bothered him before his disobedience. This shame obscured Adam’s understanding of his true identity as a beloved creation of God.
Abdication of Responsibility: Instead of taking responsibility, Adam blamed Eve, and Eve blamed the serpent. This refusal to be accountable further alienates us from God’s love.
Throughout my life, I didn’t trust God. I believed a loving and trustworthy God wouldn’t allow my sufferings. I thought He was withholding goodness for unknown or even cruel reasons, leading me to alienate myself from Him, sometimes disobeying moral truths and other times denying His existence. I must take responsibility for these choices, despite any ignorance on my part or manipulation by outside forces.
My struggles convinced me that I had to rely solely on myself, leading to a life of survival and limited human means. The shame of these choices prevented me from seeing God at work in my life and recognizing my true identity as His creation. This led me to create a stunted and limited version of myself, far from what I was meant to be.
Blame played a significant role in my life. I blamed God, my parents, those who betrayed me, and myself for my earliest psychological, emotional, and physical wounds. Today, I understand that God calls for accountability, not blame. While others may be accountable for their actions, I am responsible for my responses and how I perpetuate suffering. Blame separates us from our true identity as God’s loved creations, while accountability reunites us with Him.
I never understood Jesus as a savior because I didn’t know what I needed to be saved from. I thought I was just doing my best under difficult circumstances. Now, I realize that my alienation from God, my shame, and my blame have contributed to these circumstances. I needed to be awakened and rescued from this cycle.
Jesus came to shed light on this alienation-shame-blame cycle. His life, sacrificial death, and resurrection reveals the distortion that plagues humanity and points the way back to God.
We reverse shame and blame by taking responsibility for turning away from God and trusting him even in the worst crises. We commit to communing with God and making Him the center of our lives, seeking His guidance through the Holy Spirit, and lovingly connecting with others, knowing they are on the same journey.
Today, I am freed from the darkness that kept me blind and deaf. I can see, hear, and envision a life of love, joy, and hope. I am so grateful that God never stopped pursuing me and that He sent His Son to bring me back home.
With God as my Father, Jesus as my savior, and the Holy Spirit as the manifestation of God’s love for me, I now know that nothing is impossible for my life.
Amen.
The Radical Catholic 
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